Media Slayer

What is my medium?

Tue, 23 Apr 2013 03:38:11 -0400

The creation date for this journal entry is March 28, 2009, but I may have written it earlier than that. What’s pathetic is, four years later, after all my life experiences and college and meeting so many different, new people and having undergone at least two massive paradigm shifts, this hasn’t changed. I’m still struggling to grasp and handle my own uniqueness and creativity. If I’ve got any worth spending my time on.

Part of me enjoys taking care of my child so much because I don’t have to think about myself. I just have to focus on his well-being and making sure he’s happy and thriving. My self-doubts don’t matter or get a chance to creep into my cognition.

“What is my medium?

I can’t seem to find any one that suits me.

I’m not excellent at any one thing.

Only good at some.

Only mediocre at others.

Very bad at so many more.

I hate to see people and read their blogs and look at their art and watch videos and fall in love with them, knowing that I can never get to know them, for all their creativity and beauty. And I hate that I can’t respect those around me that I am close to. And I hate that I am so far out of touch with myself that I don’t know who I am.”

medicalschool: Doctors Order Fewer Lab Tests When They Are...

Tue, 23 Apr 2013 03:33:30 -0400

medicalschool:

Doctors Order Fewer Lab Tests When They Are Aware of the Prices

Doctors order fewer laboratory tests during a patient’s hospital stay if they know how much the tests cost, according to a new study.

Researchers found that doctors at one U.S. hospital ordered about 9 percent fewer lab tests - such as blood work - when their computerized records system displayed the price. “(Before the study) we saw a lot of waste. We saw a lot of tests that didn’t need to be ordered,” said Dr. Leonard Feldman, the study’s lead author from The Johns Hopkins University School of Medicine in Baltimore.

Part of the reason doctors order a lot of tests could be that they don’t know how expensive they are, according to the researchers. It’s estimated that the U.S. healthcare system wasted about $226 billion on overtreatment and unnecessary use of lab tests during 2011, Feldman and his colleagues wrote in JAMA Internal Medicine on Monday.

[Read more of this FOX News Article here]

I would be super interest in knowing how often doctors order lab tests in other countries when they’re aware of the pri—OH WAIT WE’RE THE ONLY FIRST WORLD COUNTRY STUPID ENOUGH NOT TO HAVE SOCIALISED MEDICINE.

Hair

Tue, 23 Apr 2013 03:30:54 -0400

Most people don’t know that I pull my hair. I didn’t know it either until a boyfriend pointed it out to me a few years ago. But now my husband is telling me that I’m getting a few, small bald spots. I have a bit of a “grooming” problem. This is me, telling you what you would be feeling and thinking and doing if you were me while I pull my hair.

Please excuse all the grammar and syntax errors. I tried to write while in the middle of actually doing it.

“It’s such a tedious process. At first, you’re not even thinking about it as you do it. You’ve got to feel through hundreds of different chunks of hair until you finally finger through that one that just doesn’t feel right. Then, you do. It’s so out of place from the rest of them. As your fingertips come slipping past the ends you can feel the culprit strands. The ragged and bent and discoloured strands of hair that have no place being on your head. There’s a tension about it, an anticipation. You’re anxious knowing it’s there but excited that you found it so now, you can get rid of it. But this takes even more careful searching. You need to single out just that one. And you know it makes all the others around it feel off as well, so you need to make sure you track down exactly the right one. The rest of the world doesn’t exist at this point. It doesn’t matter what you were doing because now, you’re so close to getting rid of that strand. Maybe you think you have it but there’s so many between your fingers, you suddenly lose it. So you have to start the process over of finding it again. And of course, you do, because it has become your only goal at that point. It doesn’t matter if you were driving or talking or eating, all that is important is getting that offending hair. You get it down to just three. Your finger tips are working so slowly and carefully at this point. You need two hands now—you need to make sure you separate them all. It just doesn’t feel right if you pull out two. Even if one of those two hairs was the one you were looking for, all it does is disappoint if you’ve pulled out a perfectly good hair with it. Between your two deftly working hands, you grasp just the one between your thumb and index finger. Your other hand moves in once more to do that last quality check, to be certain that you’re just. Holding. The one. And you are, at last, it’s just the one. Already you can feel on the follicle that stinging of it being tugged at for s many minutes. You let go with your other hand, but move in with the middle finger of that hand that’s still holding on, make sure your grasp is firm, and in one, swift motion, you pluck the soliciting hair from it’s post on your scalp. But you’re not done with it—not yet. The task is not yet finished. Before it’s cast aside and forgotten about, you have to inspect it. You find the end and hold it in one hand, then slide your other thumb and index and middle finger back along it. You need to feel it. You need to assure yourself of it’s rigidity and jaggedness and thickness to reassure yourself that it’s the right one. You spin it between your fingers, inspecting the changing translucence and colour in the light. And after several seconds of inspection and making certain that you’ve rid yourself of that slender little criminal on your head, you feel a release. After a process that felt like an eternity, you feel at peace. For a few moments, there is bliss and satisfaction, knowing and feeling that this hair is now gone. At last, you can let it go. The job is done. You feel complete. It can’t bother you anymore.

Until your hand unconsciously goes back to running through your scalp, in search of another one…”

world-shaker: [leaves this here and backs away] reblog...

Mon, 15 Apr 2013 23:39:04 -0400

world-shaker:

[leaves this here and backs away]

reblog forever. This is america.

So

Tue, 26 Mar 2013 02:19:01 -0400

I finished a short novel. Now what?

Grr.

Sat, 23 Mar 2013 02:25:27 -0400

I was never going to win. You expected me to fuck up. You were waiting for it to happen. So either yes, I was going to eventually fuck up, or I was going to spend the rest of our relationship with you hanging over my head waiting for me to fuck up.

I hope you know that. I hope you know that people MAKE MISTAKES. What has been done in the past by other people was heinous but you can’t assume that of everybody else or think that lesser fuck ups by other people are just as bad.

Also, my son has a name. It’s not “so-and-so’s little brother” or “Dan’s second child.” he is my first son, my first child. He has a real name.

atomstargazer: All About Elementary Particles First two images...

Fri, 22 Mar 2013 23:33:51 -0400

atomstargazer:

All About Elementary Particles

First two images

Third image

Fourth image

Fifth image

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J. K. Trolling. OMG WAT

Sat, 16 Mar 2013 23:31:46 -0400

J. K. Trolling.

OMG WAT

Fucking Trigger warning?

Mon, 11 Mar 2013 19:19:50 -0400

What is this trigger warning bullshit? So we have to give warnings and censor what we say on our personal blogs and twitters and social networking sites because strangers that we don’t know or care about might be “triggered?” Look, as someone who’s suffered post traumatic stress disorder and a variety of mental illnesses throughout her life, I can tell that being on the internet and out in society I didn’t run around telling everyone they had to be sensitive to my problems and adjust what they were saying accordingly. If you know you have a problem with words or scenarios setting you off then you need to be aware of that and go out into the world at your own discretion, not expect everyone else to cater to you. When I had a meltdown from what someone else said or what I read posted on the internet, I quietly went into the other room, had my freak-out, then when I was calmed-down went back to what I was doing. Do we need to start putting “trigger warnings” on our tv-shows and in our books and in the beginning credits of our movies, too? How do you expect to survive in the real world when you can’t adjust when the smallest thing upsets you? That’s YOUR problem, not everyone else’s.

p1kachu: omg :3 THIS FOREVERR

Fri, 01 Mar 2013 03:00:55 -0500

p1kachu:

omg :3

THIS FOREVERR

UUGGHH

Thu, 21 Feb 2013 02:29:41 -0500

So my flashdrive with my novel on it died. I had a backup cop but it wasn’t everything I’d written, so my drive to write for the past two months has been DEAD. So now I have to shell out 125 fucking dollars to MAYBE get it fixed. This is literally one of the most depressing things of my life. If you’re a writer, you’d understand :/

Now that the pregnancy is over...

Thu, 21 Feb 2013 01:43:59 -0500

Going back to being vegetarian. Meat is gross :/ I wanna try out veggie dogs, bro

thescienceofreality: Mindblowing Lego Creations that Inspire...

Thu, 21 Feb 2013 00:50:31 -0500

Space Station in Space.

Functioning Printer

Robotic Chess Set.

Rubik's Cube Solving Machine.

thescienceofreality:

Mindblowing Lego Creations that Inspire Geekery

Image descriptions below from left to right, starting at top:

•”Space Station in Space. Building a straightforward replica of the International Space Station from LEGOs in a couple hours might not seem that impressive here on Earth, but Japanese astronaut Satoshi Furukawa made the model last year while he was actually aboard the International Space Station. A video shows Furukawa fitting the parts together for the meta construction inside a sealed container. When he takes out the completed LEGO model and lets go, it floats in space. ‘I hope this experience inspires [children] to make greater efforts to study science and technology,’ he told CollectSPACE.com in an interview.”

•”Functioning Printer. Fourteen-year-old Leon Overweel produced an impressive working printer last year from LEGO Mindstorms, specialized kits with parts to build custom, programmable robots. Overweel’s PriNXT employed several motors and sensors to control a felt-tip pen. ‘The kid’s age and multi-language computer skills are pretty awesome,’ Webb noted. But other functional LEGO printers exist, including a whimsical one made in 2010 by the user Horseattack. Adorned with LEGO minifigs or minifigures, the ‘Lego felt tip 110’ was built and coded from scratch with a writing demon board along with homemade analog electronics and sensors. It even achieved 75 dots per inch.” More here.

•”Robotic Chess Set. Built by engineer Steve Hassenplug and his friends, Monster Chess is exactly the kind of LEGO creation it sounds like. Measuring 156 square feet, the enormous chess set cost $30,000 used 100,000 elements, 25 NXT intelligent bricks, a laptop, and took a year to construct. The pieces seem like they’re playing on their own, and when it’s one side’s turn, the raised horse legs on the knight pieces move in the air. Webb called the robotic LEGO chess game a regular crowd-pleaser. ‘It’s been at BrickFair AL the past two years and is slated to appear in BrickFair England, too,’ he added.” More here.

•”Rubik’s Cube Solving Machine. LEGO Mindstorms that connect bricks to robotics opened up new possibilities for great geekery. A prime example: Mike Dobson and David Gilday’s CubeStormer II, a LEGO machine designed to solve Rubi’s Cubes that uses a Samsung Galaxy running an Android application. Commisioned by theta British semiconductor company ARM, the machine broke the human world record in 2011 by solving the cube in 5.352 seconds. Webb cautions about relying too much on non-bricks, though. ‘Once you step outside actual LEGO, things get less impressive real fast,’ he said.”

LEGO. MAKE THE SPACE STATION A SET. I WOULD BUY IT SO FAST.

thescienceofreality: The World’s First 3D Printing Pen that...

Wed, 20 Feb 2013 03:06:22 -0500

thescienceofreality:

The World’s First 3D Printing Pen that Lets you Draw Sculptures in Midair.

“Forget those pesky 3D printers that require software and the knowledge of 3D modeling and behold the 3Doodler, the world’s first pen that draws in three dimensions in real time. Imagine holding a pen and waving it through the air, only the line your pen creates stays frozen, suspended and permanent in 3D space. Sound like magic? Well it certainly looks like it, watch the video above to see the thing in action. The 3Doodler was designed by Boston-based company WobbleWorks who recently launched a Kickstarter campaign to sell the miraculous little devices that utilizes a special plastic which is heated and instantly cooled to form solid structures as you draw. I don’t know about you but for me this might have just won the most impulsive Kickstarter purchase in history. Check it out.”

Learn more here & here.

I just dropped 75 dollars on this idea

did-you-kno: Source Doing this.

Tue, 19 Feb 2013 04:54:18 -0500

did-you-kno:

Source

Doing this.

did-you-kno: Source Oh my god, is this true? I’m...

Thu, 14 Feb 2013 07:36:47 -0500

did-you-kno:

Source

Oh my god, is this true? I’m dyslexic in English, but when I was learning German I didn’t have a problem with it :o

I want to be in a Bill Maher and John Stewart sandwich :]

Wed, 13 Feb 2013 02:26:14 -0500

I want to be in a Bill Maher and John Stewart sandwich :]

Republican Response to State of the Union

Tue, 12 Feb 2013 22:44:59 -0500

Gag me with a spoon, Marco Rubio.

Photo

Sun, 27 Jan 2013 16:34:24 -0500

andiamburdenedwithgloriousfeels: destinysstepchild: dirtyxygirl...

Wed, 23 Jan 2013 03:08:19 -0500

andiamburdenedwithgloriousfeels:

destinysstepchild:

dirtyxygirl:

cat4music87:

world-shaker:

Guys.

It’s a Periodic. Table.

Oh. My. God.

I bet that bench is really unstable.

DYING OH MY GOD